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July 10th, 2004

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03:58 pm - A time to live
So, I've got this condition called Crohn's disease. (You can do a Google on it if you want, but you'd probably rather not know. Trust me.) Because of this, I've been on again off again with my health for awhile. I've been working from home the last couple of years, which has been helpful, but I've been pretty limited. In fact, I've barely gotten out of the house much at all for probably at least 3 years, maybe more. I go to the office maybe once a week, maybe out to dinner every couple of months, or over to my Mom's house or a friend's house or out to sushi, but I've been almost housebound for a long time.

I think ... that may be over.

The last time I got really ill was last March. I dropped about 35 pounds because I couldn't eat. I lost like damn near all my muscle mass, clothes didn't fit, felt awful. Hey, being smaller was nice, but ... I just haven't felt well for a long time.

So ... somewhere in the last couple of months, something snapped, and I thought, I've got to try to get my strength back. So I joined FitDay.com and started keeping a food journal -- not to lose weight, but to see if I was getting all the nutrition I needed or whatever since I'm still pretty restricted on what I can eat without problems. I found some serious lackage in some vitamins and protein, so started taking some supplements. In about a week, I started feeling better.

So I started working out.

Bought a treadmill, and started doing strength-training on the weight set that has been somewhat dusty for the last couple of years. My husband used to bodybuild, so he's been a big help in showing me the correct form so I don't hurt myself. (Plus, it lets me sneak in time with him -- "Honeeeeey, can you come spot me? I forgot how to do that one thing with the lat pulldowns you showed me and you are so good at the weight thing ..." .)

Hey, anything to get the Man away from the TV, you know?

And now ... I feel fucking FANTASTIC. I mean, I feel wonderful. I feel better than I've felt in years. You know what I did last week? I took the week off and just drove all around the area to all these places I'd driven past but never gone into, and I went shopping!

I found this amazing authentic Austrian bakery just down the street. I got kicked out of Lane Bryant in the mall ("Um ... ma'am, this is a PLUS sized store. I don't think we really HAVE anything for you here."). I hit GNC and got some other supplements. I drove out to Carson City and hung out with my grandmother.

I just ... got out of the house every single day and did whatever the hell I wanted! You may not think this is a big deal, but when you've been barely able to get out at all for 3 or more years, it is a really big deal.

I did mad shopping for clothes, too. Now, I can get into some size 4 things. SIZE 4. Holy shit. That is huge.

Or ... it's small.

Really small.

I mean, it's a huge thing.

For me, in my life and stuff.

Since I used to be a size 18 or so which is ... oh never mind.

Of course, the bizarre thing is that of all the new clothes I got, the one size 4 thing seriously makes me look chunky where the size 6's and 8's dont. How the fuck is that possible?

Anyway ...

The point is that I'm feeling great. I'm getting out, I'm doing things, I'm almost ready to start writing again, and I am really, really happy about almost everything in my life.

And ... I think ...

I think it's about damn time.

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[User Picture]
Date:July 10th, 2004 04:19 pm (UTC)

* HugeSquishyHugs *

I am so very proud of you, sweetie.

You've come a long damn way and deserve to be healthy.

* smooooches *
[User Picture]
Date:July 10th, 2004 04:45 pm (UTC)
MrsV, this is smhauthority from WWDN.

Just wanted to say hi and say:

I did mad shopping for clothes, too. Now, I can get into some size 4 things. SIZE 4. Holy shit. That is huge.

Or ... it's small.

Really small.

You lucky little scamp. I wish I could shop in single sizes ;)
[User Picture]
Date:July 10th, 2004 05:52 pm (UTC)

Tell me about it

Hell, honey. I haven't been out of the double-digits since I was in the Army, and that was a LONG time ago. That's what I'm saying about the size 4 making me look chunky. It's like -- WTF??? If I can FIT in a size 4, how can I possibly look chunky?

I think I have a really warped self-image now. hehehe!

I'm thinking I'll probably gain a lot of it back -- I think my body really prefers to weigh around 165 - 170 or so, but in the meantime, I'm just going to enjoy it.

Size 4 is pretty Twilight Zone, though. It's like -- what is this? A size 4 horse or something? :-)
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[User Picture]
Date:July 10th, 2004 07:58 pm (UTC)
Heya! Glad to see you here, gorgeous!

Yes, you can friend me. I'm not sure entirely of all the implications of this "friend" thing in the LJ context, but I don't think I have a problem with anyone friending me.

Should I be more picky about my LJ friends? :-)

Date:July 10th, 2004 08:02 pm (UTC)
That's FABULOUS news about the Crohn's and everything! My father's a GI, and I've dealt with all sorts of those kinds of troubles my whole life. I'm *thrilled* for you! :)

(aka Gwalchmai, long ago of That Other Place™) ;)
[User Picture]
Date:July 10th, 2004 08:14 pm (UTC)
Hey, I missed you! Thanks for the note. Yeah, looks like things are on an upswing now, which is nice for a change. :-)
Date:July 10th, 2004 08:21 pm (UTC)

If ya friend me, I'll let you in to my strange world if you want. Just to warn you...

Well, wait, it's me, so honestly what would be unexpectedly shocking? ;)
[User Picture]
Date:July 10th, 2004 08:28 pm (UTC)
So, like, honestly: is there an easy way to friend someone? Because wandering through all people's friends lists is kind of time consuming. :-)
Date:July 10th, 2004 08:34 pm (UTC)
At the main page, there's a teeny little search box in the upper right corner. Just type the user's name, and it'll take you to a screen where you can friend them (a pic of some little person with a plus sign to the left, or somesuch).

Which is what I did to friend you, which means you don't have to friend back if ya don't want. You should be able to see My Scary Place.

I think. I'm still relatively new at LJ. But that's what my addled brain is telling me is so. It also tells me I'm the son of Jor-El and should burn things. Good with the bad, 'n whatnot. ;)
[User Picture]
Date:July 10th, 2004 08:43 pm (UTC)
Nope, you're right. Thanks! I've gotten some friends up now. :-)
Date:July 10th, 2004 08:30 pm (UTC)

Hello MrsV

I'm just stopping by to say that's grand news about your health! I'm a friend of Cookie's - she can vouch for me. ;)

~the bum~
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[User Picture]
Date:July 11th, 2004 09:50 am (UTC)
Oh gads. Yer KILLIN' me here! Stop it!

Date:July 10th, 2004 09:15 pm (UTC)
I'm very excited for you - I know that as much as I am not an excercise person .. a 3 hour walk can help with a lot with my mood at the current time.
[User Picture]
Date:July 11th, 2004 09:52 am (UTC)
Oh, yeah. I'm totally not an exercise person. I'm actually starting to like it, though. Muscles build up really fast -- I'm surprised. I think I started to see some definition in only a couple of weeks. I'm never going to be "ripped" or anything, but it's nice to be able to flex and see something move that's not just loose flesh waggling in the breeze. heh
[User Picture]
Date:July 12th, 2004 07:25 am (UTC)

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I'm so glad yu are feeling better, MrsV.

I must wonder where you've lost the weight though. You were a tiny thing when I saw you in April. I'll have to wrap my arms around you twice for a hug I suppose. *wink*

I'm glad you are feeling up for the exercise stuff. It just feels so good to do that sometimes. :D PLus like you said more Honey time. *Grin*

And getting out of the house and seeing all the cool stuff where you live and getting to enjoy everything!!! YAY!! So does this mean you are over your RenoDistanceItous? :P Dare I hope I can get you to drag me around to see the places you like every now and again? :D

Oh and I'll be there at the end of this month. I hope you will feel up to having dinner or lunch with us or something.

It will be a pure bit of pleasure to see you happy, healthy and enjoying life. You're right it is about damn time you were able to do that.

I'm so happy for you. This is awesomeness!!


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